I don't ever think that I've gotten a good break or rest ever since I've finished exams, but oh well, what to do.. I had many thoughts about certain stuff lately. Thoughts of just stepping down from everything. But I guess, I really can't bear to do that as of now. After the book fair, I'm definitely going to places I really want to go. It's been long since I've gone cycling, sit around at the beach, go prawning, meet up with chagiya, play pool?

But I think what really bothers me a lot is how my finances deplete in somewhat an instant? And I keep thinking I really need a lot of moneh to sustain me. I guess I've placed my focus on the wrong stuff for a moment. Hence, randomly sending out resumes and then, when I get a reply on them, I stumble and think twice again. SCREW YOU man! WHAT WERE YOU THINKING WHEN YOU SENT THOSE RESUMES?! Just for the sake of moneh?!

Anyway, to be really honest, I like being free. Not that I have got nothing to do. But I realised, I've committed myself to many many things also. Which brings me to a point where I start questioning the reasons I've committed myself to them. Ahhh.. That also reminds me.. I need to write it down and look at them every single day so that I can remind myself why I'm doing what I'm doing.. I'm not regretting. Just that when I look at these commitments, my decisions on whether to do certain things highly depend on them.

The last clear vision (something which I saw), was a house by the beach.. The last stirring in my Spirit was when Pst Abraham Ku shared about his vision of reaching campuses, training them in character and also in the area of their dreams, and impact the marketplace. That's when I wanted to be the next JYP, SM, YG. That was also the time where I felt the most defeated. A BIG dream with no root? And I got really confused on whether it's really a God-given dream or it's just what I want to do. I guess.. One thing for sure.. I'm really wanting to have lots of moneh... Nothing wrong with that. Just that I should never have moneh rule over me, that's all. Yeap. I believe it, that's why I preach it. I need to remember!

Awesome.. It's been a long time since I woke up so early and couldn't go back to sleep. Hence, this nonsensical entry? LOL! My mom woke me up at 550am this morning to find out the source of a beeping sound that disturbed her sleep last night. And it took me almost an hour to find out what it was. GUESS WHAT?! It was her previous phone which was on and kept prompting for sim card. hahaha! And she only heard the beeping sounds last night? Weird but alright.. Case closed.

An hour before I'm really supposed to wake up to prepare myself to go to work. SO I shall go back to sleep again. =D

Peace Out,

Alright, and so I really did a cover of a song a few days back and I thought my voice was way too deep and I re-recorded myself again today. OK, I have to state something first. I chose to this song cos it's the first secular song I learnt to play on my own. Yes, I may have sang this song to someone before, but no, I'm not holding on to anything right now.

First of all, a BIG BIG WELCOME to you! =D You're given the URL possibly because I think you're ready to jump in! To the sea of thoughts of PSD. So after months of deliberating on whether I should post... Here I am.. I will be random.. So, let me first warn you on the different things I might be doing...

On good days, you'd see a decent entry. On bad days, you'd see possibly random and crazily written entries. If I don't update on a regular basis, it could be possibly cos I don't have the time to or I don't have the mood to? But yes, I will make an effort to update regularly.

When I'm confident and possibly random, I might post some videos of my weird singing and guitar strumming.. SO, you can choose NOT to click on them! I'd post in the title, so not to worry! =D

If you really want to get to know me, I guess you can invest on things like spending time sitting around with me completely doing nothing? I enjoy SB very much. SO I would pay to sit at SB and chitchat over coffee. =D And yes, I'm into K-Pop lately. The songs in my BB are mostly, if not all, K-Pop and a majority belong to a girl group with 9 amazing and awesome people. You should be able to tell who they are now. OH and YES, I will post YT videos in which I find amazingly funny simply cos I love to watch variety! =D AGAIN, you can choose not to watch them as usual! =D

Signing off,