It’s like one day before graduation. I actually have really mixed feelings about it. Well, I guess mainly because I am going to graduate with probably a pass degree or something. And I really have no idea how my parents will feel about it because they don’t really know that I am only graduating with a pass degree. But I think they also somewhat know.

Yes, yes, I know I shouldn’t really be crying over spilt milk. Ask me if I still want to further my studies? Truthfully and frankly, I don’t wish to and probably can’t. Though these few months, there were days I woke up thinking if I should probably further my studies overseas or something. FUNNY right? Hahaha. Guess which country I looked through? Actually, don’t need to guess la. KOREA. Hahaha..

So yea, back on the topic of graduating? I really DON’T KNOW how to feel about it? Deep down, I’m relieved, yet at the same time worried? Mainly because I’m supposed to be looking for a full time job? Seriously speaking, I really want to go overseas for a while. WHY I GOT NO MONEY?! HAHAHAHA! I have my reasons for going overseas for some time. I want to be exposed to living somewhere else and also learning about their culture, so on and so forth. I SHOULD SO GO INTO TOURISM INDUSTRY RIGHT? Since I have a keen interest in traveling and learning new languages. BUT, is the pay good? This is one of the times I question.. WHY CAN’T I HAVE THE BEST OF BOTH WORLDS? HAHAHA!

Oh well… 

OKOK，我应该写入正题吧。我最近一直在找工作，相信很快就要踏入工作社会圈子了。真不知道该如何去面对。但还是总要面对吧。我其实还满喜欢现在所做的事情，就感到很充实（fulfilling）！可是啊，我真的需要一份工因为我需要赚钱啊！不然没钱给爸妈。他们辛辛苦苦把我养得那么大，共我读上大学，给我钱买我想要的东西如 Mr.P，手机，等等。有些时候想起来，总觉得对不起爸妈。因为学校成绩不是很好。我想得真的好好补偿爸妈了。让他们好好享受了。但是我却不想那么匆忙找一份我有可能不喜欢的工。也许就因为太多 reservations，所以到现在都找不到工。

其实我知道啦。不要hiam那么多就ok了嘛！好啦好啦，我会认真的考虑和祈祷。希望神能给我wisdom！我想我应该过不久就会有好消息了吧。=)